A Strange Connection
A few months ago, I recieved a notification at home to come and pick up an enveloppe (I knew it was a package, so I thought the delivery guy was really stupid to write enveloppe instead). Hence, just the guy's writing had an effect on me before I even got the chance to see him.
I thought he was a bit stupid since he couldn't see the difference between a package and an enveloppe. Weirdly enough, his writing gave me chills and I even paid attention to his signature name on the sheet. I usually never pay attention to such detail. But that day, I did.
Hence, I go to the office and collect the package in question. As soon as I looked at the guy, I felt something very very bizarre. It's like he reminded me of myself and of my brother at the same time. Notwithstanding the fact that I thought he was very good looking but not in a sensual way, in a way, beyond words.
I can still picture the scene in my head right now.
After this first encounter, I bumped into him a few times and every time we would talk for these administrative issues, I would just melt but in a very strange way.
Everytime I would go to the office to ask something, he would be the one taking care of it.
Then, summer came and I never saw him again. Nonetheless, about two months ago, I felt this crazy urge to go to Germany. I had never been interested in going to Germany before, and for some reason, I was really drawn to this place. Only to find out afterwards that this boy in question moved to Germany. I didn't even know that since I don't know him personally.
That's also the reason why few weeks before meeting him, I was thinking about going to Germany. Probably because Germany was in his thoughts back then.
The problem is that ever since I saw him, I can't get him out of my mind. I think about him all the time. I feel like he reminds me of myself. He's ambitious, generous, involved, overachiever, and a workaholic (echos I got). It's like looking in a mirror. Plus, ever since I met him, I know what I want to do with my life, because he's doing exactly the same thing I want to do. I wasn't quite sure it was the right path for me but meeting him confirmed my thoughts. It's like an awakening.
Besides, I feel like I know him from somewhere, but I don't know how or where.
He is everything that I am and that I wish I could be at the same time.
I really don't know what to do because my reason tells me that I'm wasting my time as I'm never going to see him again, wheras some inner voice believes there's something more behind this. It's beyond words, I feel like he could be a husband, a guide, a friend I don't know. It's really strange to think about a stranger that much. It's really not my type of personality, especially since I was in a relationship when I met him and meeting this guy made me realize my relationship was not right for me. I had to break it off, only to find out later that those two guys were living in the same neighborhood and they know each other.
All of this is really bizarre. I've been feeling sad or happy about a guy I don't even know, I feel like I'm going insane. Could it be a twin flame scenario ?
This person was in my dreams twice in both dreams he was ignoring me despite my desperation to seek his attention. I do believe it's a twin flame situation because I've never experienced such thing before. I don't want to let go of it or maybe I should.
That is very strange because I feel as thought this encounter woke me up. I somehow look up to him although I don't know him personally. I can get really happy when I think of him and then switch to sadness in a minute because he's far way.
Then feeling like we're going to meet again and the next minute telling myself it's impossible. It's almost been 9 months and he's all I can think of. All I know is that this situation is not normal. Such think never happened to me, I'm a bit scared. Meeting him has made me a better person for some reason.
I just would like this to end, in a good or bad way, but I can't stand this situation. Hopefully, I'll end up figuring out this mystery. I don't really know what to think about this story.