All right, it's like this. I'm an Indigo, I know I am. I've always been. I'm the weirdo, hardly survived high school by staying low key, had some trouble, but I knew enough to stay down and shut up because, damn did I feel different, I even remember having trouble with other kids my age in kindergarten. I can't stand stupid people, and I go from wishing humanity would just die one moment to wanting to help everyone the next. I could never hold down a service job, I usually quit jobs that required me to deal with the public.
I can't relate to anyone, my psychic powers are really weak, I'm an empath and now I know why I get my ass kicked everyday by such strong emotions (I didn't realize I was an empath until I looked back on my past and remembered all the times I felt dizzy, sick, and on edge) My social skill are shit and now, on top of everything else, when I try to meditate on the chakras, I can only go for 20 minutes and not really get anywhere. On top THAT, I can't even relate to other Indigos? What the heck?
I'm drowning here, and I haven't been able to find support. It's not easy for me to reach out. I keep thinking I'm intruding or I'm not wanted or too weird to get to know. I'm such a shut-in because of my Indigo nature, I'm drowning. Things have gotten so bad, and this is so big, I can't do it myself this time and hide out in secret. What do I have to do to get this to work? I'm called by visions and spiritual voices but when I make a real effort, I'm still isolated. I really don't understand.