~Being Me~

by PeopleGetYourActTogether

Ok, this is the first chance I’ve gotten to talk about myself in a long time, I usually prefer writing fiction, but as it transpires, fact is much stranger then fiction.

I guess I’ve lived a pretty 'normal' life, by earth standards. My parents split up when I was 3, I can literally remember the very day. After that I moved around from house to house, probably about five of them in all.

Then came school, my god, I absolutely hated the education system. It didn’t make one bit of sense, we go to school to 'learn' stuff of absolutely no value at all and then get told off if we are not interested. What pissed me off was the fact that I was educating myself at home through the internet and found so much information of value especially in the realm of spirituality and metaphysics and it seemed completely irrelevant that they would teach subjects such as geography and 'history' when this kind of information was out there, I lost interest very quickly and vented much of my frustration by fighting with those around me which eventually led to me being outcaste from my initial society.

I completely lost interest in school by the time I was 15 but managed to stick it out until the final exams by bunking off every day and hanging out with my mates to smoke pot and have some fun. Then when exam time inevitably arrived I just about managed to pass, even though I had been absent for most of the lessons. Needless to say, I’ve never felt to impulse to pursue a career, other then playing my music and drawing and doing stuff that I consider worthwhile. I’ve had a few jobs but they didn’t last very long, they either ended with me walking out or getting fired for having an argument with my boss.

Since then I’ve been floating through life lost and alone, I can make friends easily but I just don’t bother keeping them because they show no interest whatsoever in the things I find so hugely important. I guess the internet has been my saving grace for connecting with people of like minds.

I’m 21 now, I can’t see myself living past 25. I’ve been on a self destructive drink and drugs path for the past 4 years and the only way I can seem to cope is by drinking copious amounts of alcohol every second day. I'm not suicidal, I just wanna go back home. It’s that or find 'my kind' here, but so far in my years I’ve only managed to come across 3 people who were like me. And we knew each other straight away, it was unbelievable. I remember this one girl I met who I know was an indigo she said to me, "I feel so comfortable around you, it feels like we’ve known each other forever" She was awesome, such a beautiful personality, it’s just a pity she happened to be my best mates girlfriend.

My parents and family are well pissed off at me, they say I’m intelligent and even forced me to take an IQ test to prove it to myself. I was stumped when I came up with a result of 139. Music, Art, Good people, they are the only things that interest me. And without the third I lack motivation to pursue the other two.

I’ve totally written too much lol, if anyone feels they would like to chat you can add me on msn messenger if you like, its PeopleGetYourActTogether@live.co.uk

I'm hoping to start an 'indigo revolution' very soon. The idea is to create a place where indigos can communicate via webcam video much like what you find on YouTube. I’ve seen far to many indigo forums going tits up due to saboteurs and intended corruption so I guessed that a video orientated site would have a much higher chance of success to help connect indigos from around the world.

Ok guys, PEACE out to ya all! If I don’t cya in this life, I’ll cya in the next ;)

Much love, be good, and be safe :)

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Jun 02, 2009
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Gosh !
by: Jham

Well sometimes in life we can encourage different problems especially on family but when I'm reading your post I knew that you're trying your best to fight for all the trials that you've been encouraging on that time. Keep being strong.

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