Bizarre Twin Flame Story
A couple of weeks before meeting this guy, I had just gotten a job at a coffee shop that I had really felt guided to work at. Strange things kept happening there, each time me and a co-worker would talk about someone or something, they would walk in, even people or related people I hadn't seen for years.
I was growing increasingly happy, and rising above the sadness and anger that has troubled me my entire life. The synchronicities were to the point where I was just not even surprised anymore... but then I started getting strange déjà-vu with people and things happening with people that were simply ordering coffee. One instance I felt intense vertigo and started shaking... I can't even describe these feelings... and it was just two people ordering coffee and talking about meaningless things...
Well... I was so damn happy and was totally at peace with myself and the universe one day... which is very unusual for me in the comparison of my life-long sadness... and I HAVE HAD THE CRAZIEST LIFE... Believe me... coming that far never seemed possible but it was what I had been "praying" and "meditating" for. One day I kept feeling and seeing this "pink energy" and I kept thinking about this "pink energy feeling" and I was so happy and kept wondering what is the DEAL with this PINK thing? I looked outside and there was the most beautiful sunset I'd ever seen. INTENSE pink... So a couple days later at work I was even happier. I was even happy cleaning the bathrooms. I was happy towards people who had reallllllllllyyyyyyy wronged me. It was like everything made sense and I was just in the "now". I loved everyone and everything. I had this intense energy and was cleaning and talking, being very extroverted, which is also something new, and eating a snickerdoodle cookie and drinking a latte and suddenly it got very busy... A long line of people came in and I felt so connected and good towards everyone... and suddenly this guy came in.
I thought I knew him. He seemed so familiar. Not like any typical déjà-vu, I actually thought I knew him. When he spoke, his voice resonated into my very soul; each cell in my body was like a vibrating bell. He kept trying to talk to me even though we were so busy. He kept asking me questions and I ended up telling him I was an artist, musician and writer. He was too..! Especially the writer part... I KNEW it already though... He said he'd like to see some of my work, so I asked him for a business card. He didn't have one so he made one on a piece of paper. His name seemed so familiar. He said he was in town visiting, but was from a different state, which is far away, so then it was weird that I felt I knew him. He mentioned the words ‘spirituality’ and ‘metaphysics’ which REALLY grabbed my attention (I think that's when I asked for his business card). He shook my hand and said it's very nice to meet you.
A month later and I still can't figure out WHAT I was feeling in that moment. I remember each word he said if I sit here and think about it. It was like a movie scene. I can see it again in my head. Well, it was busy and I told him when he kept trying to talk to me "I have to work now, Please come back" I am not sure where this came from. It just came out of my mouth. And he left. I said to my co-worker "He's perfect. He's beautiful”. The people he was with were next in line and they seemed so familiar too. I said hi to them, like I flipping knew them too. After he left, I mean it took days for things to hit me. And I mean HIT me. Everyone seemed DIFFERENT to me. EVERYTHING made sooooo much sense... my past lessons made sense and seemed necessary... I felt connected to everyone to the point my perception had completely changed to a larger one. My intentions were so clear. My purpose in life is so clear.
I texted him my number and kept it really casual. I looked him up on facebook and when I typed his name... it was the strangest feeling I'd EVER had. THIS IS COMING FROM SOMEONE WHO SEES ORBS, AURAS, HEARS ANGELS SOMETIMES, AND HAS HAD PSYCHIC DREAMS, OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCES, AND HAS SEEN and went through MANY BIZZZARRE THINGS. It truly felt like I was writing my own damn name; like I had been writing his name instead of my own for my entire life. I found his profile immediately and when I read his info I started crying. He had spiritual things and quotes and everything I would choose, much of the same favourite music, and he wrote things exactly how I would if I wasn't afraid of what people thought. It was like looking at a mirror but seeing the person I've always been looking for. I looked at his picture and all of
these feelings hit me. My energy in my body started moving. My soul starting moving my body, like it was leaving my body... or like I was receiving all of this information from deep in my soul and I was typing it and my body was following. It is hard to describe. Then I started to realize that he was the exact description of who I'd always been looking for.
I called my sister and told her I had met someone special. She isn't into the metaphysical studies that I am but she looked him up online and freaked out... and said "Weird, he sounds just like you" and she said something that really freaked me out. "He looks exactly like the guy you were obsessed with when we were little." I remembered drawing pictures of a blonde haired kid that I felt a connection with when I was growing up. I felt I was this person… but not this person… No one understood what I was talking about, but I knew there was something special about this person when I was little and had these feelings for, and always "missed". I even used to think I had a twin and thought I could "feel" him. I would see him in my mind, and I loved him so much… this imaginary guy… I remembered looking up at the moon and Orion and feeling this feeling like there was this person out there I would find one day and that was a very spiritual feeling, and begged the universe for me to find him one day. I would always feel good feelings back, something about music, and love.
I researched twin flames online that night and read about coming into "pink energy" before you meet them. I was completely freaked out. I also remembered the dreams I had about a guy many times… dancing with me, going places with me, and saying very romantic things. I realized the same guy in the dreams and drawings when I was only 12 or 13 was the guy I had just met.
After a day or so he e-mailed me that he loved my interests/quotes/music and said he was coming back to town and wanted to meet with me for a drink. He also mentioned he was surprised that a band wasn't on my list and how it was a step by step guide to enlightenment. I wrote back how I had used to be obsessed with the band but had had a bad experience with at a concert. I didn't mention that my karma is tied with that band and my very bad traumatic past is tied into it as well, but I said I'd give it another chance. I did, and I fell hard. The pain, anger, and bad everything came back; the hurt… everything. He said he would be there on the 10th. But I began to question that he was really my twin flame. But I did the meditations on line and asked myself in my mind at work, “Am I crazy or is this really happening?” I looked down, and saw a rubber band was in the shape of the infinity symbol. And then I looked at the milk jugs which all said 4-10-10. Things like that kept happening. But the 10th came, and I never heard anything from him. That was a week ago.
I am still bombarded with the past karma, but am getting better about reacting to it. I have become vegan, and have been doing more spiritual art. I have heard songs in my head with a guy’s voice singing with me. I would like to think it was his. Everything is very intense. My body is much more sensitive to everything. I am braver about who I am and even posted art I was scared my friends and family would think badly about me for. I have started a painting about the tree of life connecting me to the universe and the earth in front of everyone in class. Meeting this person ONE time has changed my life. I have had soul mates before. This is completely different. I haven't talked to him, or hinted about any of this. I don't know what to do. I can only just hope to get past the bad feelings to that happy point again… and hope that I see him again one day. No person I was ever remotely interested in compares. No one comes close. I was always looking for his exact description... and when I met him... I TOLD HIM TO GO AWAY. I It was only less than a month ago, but it seems like forever ago. I am scared that he doesn't know what I know. I am sometimes scared that I'm nuts. But the signs keep happening, and I "see" more than ever. I can sense him sometimes. He speaks to me in dreams, but I can't seem to remember what he says.
The lucid dreams lately are all about me trying to change my reaction to the things that have caused me pain, anger, jealousy in the past. Maybe when I get through this I can see him in person again.