Hi, I'm a young woman, 19 years old, living in Holland and was hoping to get in contact with other Indigo's all over the world. I've been reading about Indigo's for the past few months on and off and all I felt was recognition and all I could do was cry. Life so far has not been easy. Despite this I have always been an optimist and hopeful, with the exception of some heavy depressions.
What's been bothering me the most is that I've always felt different, an outcast. I thought I was crazy. From an early age on I've been doing my own thing, I could never be swayed to be one of the mass. I questioned everything, from school systems to religion and I still do. I came to this site by accident and read one of the stories and its comments and felt like coming home.
I feel like I'm standing in front of a glass wall watching the world live their lives and I can't reach the people in it. I don't understand how I'm supposed to live in a society that I don't want to be a part of. They seem to be doing it all wrong. I don't know how else to say it. I don't want to spend my days on a 9 to 5 job with people that don't understand me at all being completely unhappy. The creativity is mentioned a lot with indigo's, definitely another thing that I recognize. I've though myself many creative skills on computer and when it comes to traditional art, but I don't feel strong enough to step in to the world and actually try and make a living of it.
I guess that's my problem; I don't feel strong enough. The last couple of years have felt like a spiritual journey, to finally become my true self: I'm learning to shut out other people's business and emotions and to stop picking up on everything, and I've overcome so many setbacks already. Only now it feels like I'm nearing the end, but like I said, I'm standing against a glass wall and it's like there are two strings in my brain that should be linked but aren't. I truly don't understand what it'll take to feel strong enough to enter society without being swallowed by it.
This message may be a bit chaotic, but it already helps to share this with other people. I would love to get in touch with other people like me, so please, feel free to comment. I am grateful that this website exists.