Diagnose Indigo Child
by Elisabetta Erben Horrell
(Honolulu HI US)
Baby Elisa 8 Months Old
I suspect (but I am not sure) that I am an indigo adult. I see myself in most of the tracts in each list. Ever since I was 13 I was able to see spirits, I heard voices of loved passed away, I have huge doses of empathy, and people say I am a good writer. (I am Italian, living the USA just since 2007, so my English isn't perfect yet).
I have this poem of when I was 13 where I was talking about death. I remember the feeling of "being cut out", in the time spent in meditation about the crappy world I was in. My nickname was "princess", figure out why! I appeared cold at first sight (and still do) while I am totally opposite. I grew up in a co-dependent family, where the psychological abuse was strong.
At the age of 17 I was sexually assaulted, the guy wanted to kill me, but I escaped rape and death with a weird unnatural strength that made me fight. In the family contest of denial I was in pronounced PTSD as a consequence. Since then I have felt kind of lost, like at the mercy of the winds.
I have had few psychic encounters but I tend to shut it off, I don’t know why. What I never could forget or cut off was the necessity to "save the world", to fix injustices, help the needy, or to feel the natural/human catastrophes, like 9/11 or major quakes. It's like a major pain inside my heart; I feel all the desperation and the hurting. It is so hard to explain. Since I have had memories, I’ve always felt different, as if sometimes was wrong, but I have always felt I have a purpose.
As a child I never was diagnosed with ADHD or ADD or the like, I just recall teachers notes about how brilliant I was but easy distracted. For sure I had a strong contrast with authority figures like parents, teachers, and bosses at work. For sure I thought I thought I could do things better. While I am cold and introverted with most people, with those I feel I am in the same vibe I never stop talking, like a total different person. I am a Gemini too ugh! lol
I was born on June 13, 1976, North Italy
Now it would be great if ANYBODY could tell me if it's possible to diagnose an INDIGO. This would be a great relief to me.