Feeling Force

by Spiro
(Homosassa,FL USA)

This is not a story, but at times I feel this heavy negative force. Feeling it really prevents me from receiving any good feelings.

I have my own business and only when this force is eased am I able to continue and receive bookings for my business.

I do not know what it is I feel like it is pushing me to the edge and that I have to give up and loose all the things that are important to me.

I have a hard time describing this feeling to my wife. I can feel it at the moment and I am also aware when it is going to stop and not until it stops am I able to make money and go on with my business.

I have no idea as to what it is.
My birthday is 5/22/43.