There is nothing at all to fear dear one. You experienced something profound and amazing!
Ever heard of a twin flame? I think you should look into that as well although much of the articles on it are only about half right. He may be yours...
I would also never suggest keeping your true self, inner divinity and all this inside. It is here, NOW, for a reason! AWAKEN!
I'm a little hurried at the moment but i get the feeling you could really use support and someone to talk to more than just anybody.
If it feels right... call me.
**i also have a post on here somewhere. My name is Michale Cummings. I do distance healing normally for money, but if you realllly need it, and don't have any, well- just don't hesitate to call. I love you. :)