Don't worry, I know where you're coming from 'cause I'm a loner, too. I love to spend as much time as I can all alone; with the exception of my cat, that is LOL! But hearing from you is really exciting for me too!
People with dark energy. Fortunately, I've never gotten death threats like you have, but two girls whom I loved very much really crushed me. Both had lived very sad and painful lives and, clearly, they just couldn't get over that. They're simply not strong enough and therefore, both became very sick, twisted, mean and cruel people. Then again, if there's someone to blame for thinking they could be redeemed and made happy, it's me. My fault, not theirs. So, I forgive them and wish nothing but the best for both.
Now, if you allow me to make an observation, I'd have to say that I've sensed some fear and uncertainty in you, which given what you've been through, is only natural of course. I understand it so well because I, myself, still have a long way to go in order to fully regain my self-esteem and self-confidence. It takes courage to leave shame behind for the things we've lived through, accept who we are and why we have gone through all those things. IMHO, you're starting to reach that point; to regain your self-worth and confidence and finally opening up to the world. That's when good things start to happen. Slowly, but steadily. I'm sure you've already noticed, haven't you?
Surely, you must know that you're not alone. Nor are you some kind of circus-freak, oddity or rarity. It's not because of me, 'cause I replied to your post or invited you to write to me. It's because the Divine Absolute Power of the Universe (call It God, Spirit or whatever you like) is right there, next to you, inside of you and all around you, all the time. And the coolest thing is that through prayer/meditation you can tap into that amazing, endless power of love, light and energy anytime you want.
I've known people who boast about having met certain "celebrities", girls who brag about having slept with this or that rock star, guys who claim having partied with a certain movie star, but none of those people can say: "I'm always hanging out with the Big Boss up in the skies. I'm a VIP in Heaven!" LOL
Well, Indigo Warrior (love your handle, BTW), so many thoughts and ideas to share, but there's simply not enough space here! Still, I do hope you write soon, so we can stay in touch and keep learning from each other.
Till then, take care and keep shinning as brightly as you do! :-)
Namaste,
Tito.
Jun 06, 2008 Rating
Thank you so much Tito :) by: Anonymous
It really moved me that you write in response. You are the first Indigo who contacts me openly and it feels exciting and also a little bit frightening (I'm too used to be lonely!) Thank you so much for your offer I will write you :)
I understand what you say there has also been people in my life working with black energy, trying to pretend to be good and 'be friends of me'. But if you think of it it is all a label. We all deal with pure black energy daily, when we encounter envious or abusing or dishonest people, people who seek scapegoats for their negativity. If you think of it, it is exactly the same type of energy, only that disguised instead of in the open. Most common people work in three layers, first there is the appearance which is, of course, the appearance of a nice person who wouldn't harm anybody, generally speaking. The second layer is the unconscious one, and the dark energy comes from that. The shamans call it the Parasite. It has no moral and no limits and the conscious mind is unaware of its doings, most of times. It works instinctively so it doesn't refrain from harming, no remorse. The third layer is the central core, the purest spirit of the person and his real essence. That is the one you can appeal to to stop the attacks, because it has power over the other two, yet it is the least noticed one.
One of the best protections is to acknowledge these three layers of existence in yourself as much as you can. This is tough tough work. It was really difficult for me to learn to see and accept my darkest side, I'm still on it! It is mostly the process of becoming aware of your Parasite and how it works, the Maya the Buddhists would say ;) and then simply let it be as it is and choose to act from another level. Most of the process of self-knowledge consists, at least for me, in making conscious the unconscious. Fortunately we have many means nowadays :)
I am sure you know all this already. Another visualization that helps me a lot is that with a sword of light I cut "reality" (rather, the illusion of reality) as if it was a cinema screen. And it opens to... who knows! But that is the reality we are looking for. Something different from our illusions.
I bet your cat looks as if she was still a kitten! :) My cat is over 13 and as young as ten years ago, and in perfect health. I really think Indigos and cats make a good team, in terms of energy. The use of gems, crystals, water, plants... apparently has more to do with Crystal frequency rather than Indigo, yet I have read somewhere that Indigos evolve into Crystals at some point.
We'll talk more by mail. A big hug :)
Jun 05, 2008 Rating
Great info! Thanks... by: Tito
Hi there, Indigo Warrior,
I wanna thank you so much for these tips!
Most of my life, I've been surrounded by people with extremely negative energy, just like you. To illustrate my point: the girl whom I thought was the "love of my life" was a satan-worshipping, heroin addict. Can't get much worse than that, really. But that's just one example out of many, which I'm not gonna bore you with.
I too, was pushed around in school and seemed to always be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Naturally, I became an extremely angry, bitter and negative person and did some things that I'm certainly not proud of.
After I learned about Indigo Adults and started suspecting I was one of them, I took an on-line test in a Chilean Indigo site. (I think it's the same test you took and my scores were 95% Indigo, 75% Crystal). Since then, it's been like taking a blindfold from my eyes. All the pieces of a puzzle had finally come together.
Now, I've never wanted what you would call a "normal life". I always knew I was different and never wanted for things to be otherwise. So, after I discovered my real identity, I fully embraced my nature. Perhaps the fact that I love Star Wars 'cause the Jedi philosophy resonated so strongly with me (powerful warriors of light with psychic abilities, sworn uphold peace and justice) helped ease my acceptance of who and what I am. Or, perhaps it was the fact that I started studying Buddhism shortly before I learned I was an Indigo. Whatever the case, this was meant to be.
Now, I'm in complete agreement with you; there's lots of info on Indigo Children, lots of educational and therapeutic programs for them but almost none for us, adults. Like you, I've pretty much have had rely on my own abilities and instinct to develop my gifts (which has been a very slow process so far), change my way of life, the food I used to eat, learn ways to protect myself from all the dark, negative energy, etc. Fortunately, one of my best abilities is that I've always been better at self-teaching than at learning from others.
Some of the info you posted, I already knew. But, some things I didn't know, like surrounding myself with plants, staying close to water, cats (I've a wonderful cat, Nikita, that just adores me and has been with me for over 10 yrs. now), visualizing "antagonists", people who have done me wrong, as allies.
Again, thanks so much for sharing all of this! I'm gonna start putting it to use ASAP and I'm sure I'll get positive results. I'd love to share thoughts and experiences with you sometime, if you'd like. Feel free to write to me at: marberi@gmail.com anytime.
May you continue to be blessed and share your light with the rest of the world.
