I really respect what is said here and see that it is what I have needed to hear in my own psychic profession. I have wonderful clients, but at times I have some real negativity that comes. It can affect my whole day if allowed. I make the choice of not receiving the energy that was brought to the table by the client. Usually it is in the form of skepticism that I deal with when it is negative. Good job on bringing this information to the surface for us.:)
Pamella
Feb 01, 2008
The Ripples by: Bethoc
I allude to the "ripples" metaphor from Disney's Pocahontas DVD. I was so glad to read your contribution this morning. Your thoughts are in fact a "ripple" sent from God reaffirming a painful lesson I have been struggling through for over 2 months now. I smile as I am happily reminded that we are all here influencing each other's lives hopefully on a positive note.
It's so weird to wake up after a long conversation about this exact same subject with my fellow Indigo girl friend last night to read a lesson submitted by a complete stranger re-inforcing her guiding words spoken to me just last night. Again I smile. Here's my personal struggle: I am an Indigo survivor of an extreme case of mental, emotional, and physical child abuse. In fact everyone in my extended family on my mom's side suffered through the same excruciating childhood abuse and grew up to continue perpetrating their pain onto their own children. Being an Indigo I switched into survival mode and refused to accept the "family inheritance" that my Mom is still trying to pass onto me to this day. In 2003 she tried to choke me on Christmas day when I refused to go my grandmother's house(she began the family abuse). I was 28. The following year Her marriage ended and she would call me often saying she had a gun to her head. In December I found out she was just hospitalized for Morphine addiction. After 10 painful years of trying to salvage a relationship with her out of Guilt I had had it. I mustered up the courage to cut her off.
The yoke of guilt which has been programmed into me is a vast wasteland of ferocious tenacity. It was beginning to take its toll on me. In January I got a cold, still I continued to feel guilty and dwell on her constantly, I got Bronchitis one week later. But of course still I hadn't learned to let the pain and baggage go. 2 days after feeling I'd gotten over the Bronc I couldn't get up off the floor. I had 102 degree fever. Now I had developed pneumonia. My mental constant worrying had taken its toll on the physical body. I've been forced to stop going to work and stay in the bed and deal with this issue head on. It's like god stepped in and said "You're gonna die soon if you can't let this abuse from your past go!"
Your contribution is like another message from god re-iterating that I don't have to inflict any more pain onto myself for the past.
It wasn't my fault my family chose to be abusers. I can't change them or help them in any way. They made their choices and now I have got to make mine. I feel like it's my only way out.
Thanks for the encouragement. I could never do this alone.
