My Angel Jay

by Noel
(New York)

On June 27th last year the man I loved died of cancer. He refused to tell me for he wanted to die with me hating him. He had been my pen pal for one full year just about. We gave each other photos, he had me in his phone as sweetheart and his background was my photo.

I loved Jay from the moment we first wrote to each other. He all ways knew stuff about me that no one else knew and half of the stuff I never told him. At night even though he was miles away I felt like he was with me, watching over me. Through everything we went through he protected me till the day he died.

When he died he died holding a Jade (my power stone) bracelet I gave him over his heart. Heartbroken I remember his final words to me. "I always have been watching over you." And when I asked how...he simply said "I have my ways."

Since the day he died I have seen guys who look like him all over the place but for split seconds. Like I was on the subway once and a guy who looked just like him watched me get on, but when I glanced to the spot he was gone. Every day I wear a silver rose ring in memory of my Jay. Since he died I could no longer write, it felt like a part of me had died to.

Then one late fall night I was outside at a friend's house when a small tiny almost dead kitten came and laid on my feet. I took him home nursed him to health and no matter how hard I looked for a home for him, he always ends up back with me. I still think to this day that Jay sent him to me, my kitten now a cat waits for me outside if I am out late, he loves my bed and follows me mostly.

Strange but true....