Starry Indigo Eyes

by Ojos de Estrella

Ojos de Estrella

Ojos de Estrella

What has happened to my soul? Ever since I was a baby I knew that I had a different spirit than the others. I have recollection of memories since a very young age, and I was born in an underdeveloped country. I always struggled with myself knowing that I was different and I was afraid of showing that to others. I would close my eyes and see the universe before I went to sleep, and I was always aware of a greater power watching over me.

I am 25 years old now, and I struggle with my life a lot. God has given me unbelievable amounts of talent and intelligence but sometimes it feels overwhelming and it causes me anxiety.

I cry a lot when I see pain being inflicted upon others even if I don't know the person. I am extremely sensitive to energies in people and also energies in certain environments and it frustrates me because my husband or my friends don't understand me. I suffer from depression and anxiety a lot because of this.

On the bright side, I am gifted in so many ways and I don't know what to do with it all, I am great at writing, singing, dancing, painting, drawing, writing songs or making up stories, I am able to see things that other people don't see, and I am very intuitive. I have many dreams and I remember them all... My husband thinks I may have some type of problem because I remember even my childhood dreams and the age I was when I had them.

I am a Christian and I have the gift of prophecy... Sometimes I feel like I am an antenna to the world, and that makes me mad because I am receptive to EVERYTHING... I feel as if everything is going really fast sometimes, and I feel like I NEED TO DO SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO CHANGE THIS WORLD!!!

I have visions of helping others, especially women and children, and I am studying to become a social worker. I am so extremely empathetic towards people that it hurts... as if I feel their own pain... I struggle with anger towards society, towards myself, and towards the ones that don't understand me... I just feel like I am a skyscraper of energy captured in a little tiny box of matches ready to explode and I don't understand why I can't be normal...

I am finding my way through Jesus... because I have seen Him in a different place and He has brought me peace during times of extreme anxiety. I am extremely creative, I have always excelled in school, but I LACK PATIENCE A LOT... I NEED TO FIND OTHERS LIKE ME IN ORDER TO FIND SOME KIND OF RELIEF FROM ALL OF THIS.... AND I HOPE THIS HELPS....

I really don't want to act like I'm better than any one, I know I am not, but I just needed to vent on why I feel so different in hopes to find some kind of help... I love people, but sometimes I feel as if they are all dormant... and that makes me upset...

I just need answers right now.

My mom calls me "Ojos de Estrella" in other words, Starry Eyes...

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Jun 29, 2013
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Thank You
by: Starry Indigo Eyes

Thank you very much for your comment. I appreciate you taking the time to read this. I also believe that as time transpires I will learn how to control my gifts better. My gifts began to become more powerful after I gave birth to my daughter. I have noticed EVERYTHING changed since then, I CRAVE the sun light, I daydream about LOVE (which I have always done but now its more intense), I crave foods constantly, I cannot stand the thought of working for others for the rest of my life, I have more visions, I have experienced my soul roaming on top of the earth looking for someone but I was not me when this happened.

I have many memories of things I have not lived and then I wonder if I dreamed of them, sometimes I think it was my soul in someone else's body. When I was 16 years old I used to touch my blanket at night and blue sparks would come out of my hands and my mom would just tell me I am very electric.

I cannot stand a full moon, I get very restless on full moon nights. . I constantly need to know WHY for everything even for my own behavior, beliefs, thoughts...

I feel as if there is a different dimension that EVERYONE is unaware of... when I feel fear I experience it on my back or I get this icy/hot feeling on my arms.. . I have all these questions...why? I don't understand why I act, think, or behave the way I do? Or why these things happen?

I'm struggling.....but I have a sense of pride for being me...as if I'm chosen...I've always felt I'm chosen...but I don't think God would show favoritism towards his children so I struggle with this thought as well.

Jun 23, 2013
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Empath is hard but you will need control
by: Ms. Starr

I understand all of what you are going through. You have picked the perfect vocation. You will get better with control the older you get. It sounds to me you are always open, and that is very painful for people like us. You are in a constant state of flocks. When this happens you need to listen to your heart beat, focus on that and breathing. Slowly in and out and it should pass. My prophecies occurs in the realm between deep sleep and wake. I have had conversations with God, and he has told me things that I have seen come to pass. The first time scared me. He came as a face changing, and I asked who he/it was. Reply, " I am all, I am everything and everyone." He told me they would find a M class planet in my life time. Two weeks later it was in the news. Recently he told me that I was to tell my story, tell his story and that was his plan. All of the indigo children were to help all we come in contact with. Us all our gifts. I believe this would be the same for you. Just know you are never alone. He sits above the world and hears all our prayers, our voices.

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