About 2 years ago, when I smoked too much weed and got drug induced psychosis, I started hearing voices and thought they were my friends talking shit about me. When I called them out they never admitted to it and said that they hadn’t said anything. Then I started hearing voices when I was alone. I would hear people talk about me when I was in a crowded room. Classic psychosis right?
So I stopped smoking weed altogether and for about two years now have been on and off different medications that never really worked for me. I currently take Xanax when I need it and that makes the voices go away for some reason.
What the voices say is a whole different story. Most of the time, up in till about a month ago, I would hear negative things like, your gay, you’re a loser, you should die, no one likes you, you like little girls, you like family members . All just annoying shit like that that. It isn’t true but the voices would tell me constantly and make fun of how I walked, sat, ate, and so on.
Lately I’ve been playing online poker and the voices tell me which hands to play and to throw away and that I will win with these hands. Even if the hand I hold seem absolute garbage. One time I hear the voice saying to go all in with pocket 2s against two people already all in. Well I folded and my voice called me a pussy and it turns out I was up against pocket KK's and AA's but the board came up all diamonds and I had the only diamond. So they are never wrong when it comes to poker and a lot of other stuff lately too.
When I was painting the ceiling they told me some paint was going to fall on my lip, two seconds later bam. A lot of little stuff like that as well that they are right about. I don’t quite understand what is happening, I mean, how can these voices try and put me down and make me believe I’m some weird freak, yet turn around and be right about everything that’s about to happen in the future? They also tell me when my video games about to freeze, and DVDs about to pause. Just a lot of weird shit like that before it happens.
I would love to hear your opinion on the matter, and what you think it is I am dealing with. Are these voices from a spirit or a demon? Am I an Indigo child? Or am I just tapping into my psychic ability?