Sensing Death

by Anonymous

I'm 14 going on 15 and I need answers. So for as long as I can recall I've had visions in my dreams and while I'm awake which always came true. I kept it to myself, I felt like a freak and to this day I still do a bit. I didn't know where else to turn. The spookiest visions I've had are recently, and they've been about death. It quite frankly freaks the shit out of me. I'm in denial about this whole thing but I can't make it go away, I know most people embrace "psychic abilities", but I'm scared, I'm scared of myself and what I can do.

About month ago we found out my very old grandfather (in his late 90s) had cancer. It was terminal and we couldn't deny that. I was no doubt depressed but nobody would be able to tell because of my bottling up emotions and what not. One day a few weeks (I believe 2 or three), my pet died and I knew. I asked my mom, she was astounded and when she asked me how I knew and I just told her I didn't know, it was a premonition. Which was the honest truth. A few days later my father went to visit my grandpa in the hospicare house he was staying at. I was in the car with my mom on the way home and I had a vision, a mental image if you will, of my grandpa's corpse at a funeral and my family crying. When we got home my dad sat me down. I asked how grandpa was, he told me then. I remember it like it had just happened. "Grandpa died" he'd said. My dad told me he had died moments after he got there.

I predicted my grandfather's death. I believe I suffer from minor depression and I am scared of myself. I don't want to predict such horrible things like death. I don't want to see them, I feel disturbed like I should be admitted into an institution! What can I do? This is the only place I could find for help. I'm scared of myself and don't know how to deal with it! If anyone else is like me please, please respond and let me know how you deal with it.