Lost Indigo Soul
This morning I sat by my desk watching a cartoon on my computer... nothing unusual when an extreme weave of emotion overcame me it felt like I was going to burst in tears it was almost painful and then after a few seconds it was gone as if nothing happened. I have experienced this a lot in the past 2 or 3 years and it becomes more and more common so I decided to research this and this is how I came across the term of 'Indigo child' or 'Light-workers'.
Many things seem to become clear, like why have I been described as an 'old soul' by many people, why I have always felt too old for my teenage years (I am now 19). Recently I also began to feel as if i could access past lives memories which scares me. For example recently I have been waiting for a train and just as an express train was passing the station I got a random flashback of death by jumping in front of a train. I feel as if I tried to access memories I could, as if they were just under the surface but I seem too scared to try.
I have always had a deep understanding of the world and the way it works and is full of energy, I can understand it but it seems to be beyond words to describe it. For a while now I seem to realise that I attract 'lost souls', people who are broken and looking for support which usually leaves me emotionally drained. I also have a keen ability to read persons emotions and even personality and can always easily tell if someone is laying to me.
I can never leave a house without picturing walls made of light around me as if I was scared of other peoples energy or emotions reaching me. I thought I might be an empath or maybe psychic to some degree but after reading the descriptions of Indigo awakening traits it seems to fit me perfectly. I am not yet sure if I am right especially since I was never diagnosed with ADHD or Autism that seem to have links to the Indigo phenomenon so I would like to ask if there is anywhere I could possibly access more information? Or maybe someone could help me determine what exactly am I and what does it mean?