I'm an Indigo Adult. Now what?
Kaylor - March 22, 2009
Hi! I just found out two days ago, that I'm an Indigo Adult. I took the "test" on several sites, and answered "YES!" to ALL of the traits of an Indigo. Also, I am an INFJ, Jung personality type, one of the most common for an Indigo.
I've spent my whole life, not knowing "what I want to be when I grow up." I still don't know! It's driven me crazy! I've always felt like I was WAITING for something, but I have no idea WHAT!! I'm just....waiting.
I am Psychic, very intuitive, and I can read people like a book. I can get into their space, and they don’t even know I'm there!
I can also "manifest" things. I can make things happen. I know things are going to happen, before they happen. I've always had the sense, that I could heal people somehow.
My Numerology Life Path is a 7, which is the most Spiritual. I've always known that my life path would lead me to something very Spiritual. I'm still not sure what.
I'm lousy at relationship! I seem to attract men that are nothing but NEEDY, and they SUCK the life force out of me, and drain me. I'm in such a situation now, and hate it. My mother was very cold, and distant, and VERY controlling. That has caused me problems as an adult with anxiety. Now, this person in my life is not controlling, but he IS NEEDY! So, he DOES control me with that. He USES me for a CRUTCH! My life is ALL ABOUT HIM! I have NO LIFE! I feel like I've come FULL CIRCLE and he's the SATANIC REINCARNATION OF MY EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE MOTHER!!! YIKES!! :(
I LIVE for my Quiet time, and my Alone time! It's when I can ground, and center myself, and recharge my batteries. I love to meditate. I feel like there is something in the Universe that will tell me something. I do have a "Spirit Guide," who wishes to be called, "Twilight." She's always there, and I can channel him/her. I don't get any answers though, I feel like I am suppose to figure this out by myself.
SO! I'm an INDIGO ADULT! NOW! What do I do with this? How can I corral all of these talents, and gifts, and weirdness....and create a life for myself? I just want to be happy. No point in wanting to be "NORMAL," that ship has already sailed.....and I wasn't on it!
I want to help people, I just don't LIKE people! People are STUPID, and I can NOT deal with STUPID!! They pretty much "Cause their own problems!!"
My biggest fear...is that I will die....."WITH MY SONG STILL IN ME!
I would appreciate any information or advice from any other Indigo Adults. I'd LOVE to make some new INDIGO FRIENDS!!! Are we supposed to be getting together and DOING SOMETHING???? Or are we "waiting to be CALLED????"
Thanks! - Kaylor