Is Ignoring Psychic Abilities Hurting Me?
This is a question more than a story. I've never considered myself to be psychic although I have felt, seen, and heard energies, spirits, ghosts, whatever you want to call it for as long as I can remember. Many of my first memories include seeing entities in my house or having an out of body experiences when I slept.
For a long time now, I have tried to ignore these things because of an incident in middle school which made my parents think I was schizophrenic and I have since tried to keep all receptors shut off. Even though both I and my parents have been told since then that I show no signs of mental illness and that I probably have some psychic ability, I still chose not to acknowledge any abilities I may have.
But in these past few years my health has been getting worse and worse. I usually don't sleep and when I do, I either have terrible nightmares, or moments when I am stuck in between sleep and consciousness where I’ll see, feel, and hear entities. It's gotten worse since I went away to college since my dorm building used to be a hospital (I didn't know that until too late unfortunately) and now these energies are starting to affect me during the daytime in class.
I don't know how to deal with this. I want all of it to go away but I know that’s not going to happen so if anyone knows any tricks to safely developing psychic abilities then please let me know because I am really starting to fear what kinds of bad things may get in if I’m too sick to keep them out.