Accepting Indigo Ability
by Kath Riley
I’m 22, I don’t know much about this really, yet I’ve always had a calling to read up on it. When I was younger I always sensed when someone was sad even if they weren’t crying and I’d show them it would be alright. I always have done that, this strange ability to know what others are feeling most of the time has never left me.
In most of my childhood and teens I was drunk most of the time and trying to block it out so I didn’t hurt if someone else did. Not realizing I had to help them not just feel pain around me, though it’s not always pain. I get strange understandings of the world and the creative mind, I somehow know that I am meant to be creative but don’t know what for just yet.
I'm a musician and artist and I write at least 2 songs a day, which is apparently a high creative mind but I thought it was normal. Since childhood I’ve always been drawn to Haworth in Yorkshire though I live in Lancashire. I visited a museum of the Bronte sisters and felt dizzy and cried, my friend had to take me out because I couldn’t stop crying. I also see spirits which I did as a child but have spent most of my life trying to block it because I’ve been too afraid.
I am now trying to embrace all this for whatever reason I need to be aware of these things. I have also experienced a lot of emotional hurt and physical hurt through my 22 years and keep being told I’m an old soul and that I am 'wise beyond my years'. I just don’t understand it all, but I have to try.
If I’m here to help I must.
I don’t know how though..