Indigo Becoming Crystal
I was born Indigo and am now in the process of turning Crystal. I also have 2 Crystal sons and my partner is Indigo too.
I always knew I was different but I was luckier than most because my Grandfather was also Indigo so I had his help and guidance.
I am finding the transformation into Crystal much harder than I thought it would be.
I keep having dreams in which a man, who looks like a Tibetan Monk, is telling me that it is really important to stay positive at all times because your thoughts create the world and that the world changes according to people's thoughts and desires, so you need to love yourself, your life, and everyone in the world, even your enemies, otherwise the world you create will be a horrible hateful place to live.
That's the part I am finding hardest. I try to do what he tells me, but, although my partner IS an Indigo, he denies this and is always being negative, the more positive I try to be the more negative he becomes, also, my youngest son who is undoubtedly Crystal completely denies that he is Crystal and is always critical and sarcastic towards everyone.
How am I supposed to stay positive and love everyone and everything when I am being constantly bombarded with negativity and sarcasm?
To make things even harder I am also bombarded on a daily basis with "the hum", from what I can make out it is exactly like "the taos hum" except it's here in England, it started for me 3 years ago and it NEVER stops.
The effort of trying to stay positive in this situation is making me ill but I know I have to find a way of fulfilling this Destiny somehow, this mission is too important; failing is not an acceptable option.
Anyone got any suggestions?