I am 15 years old. I have been trying to figure out what has been going on in my head for years now. Ever since I can remember I have had thoughts so deep and complicated, even supernatural, that they have deprived me of enjoying my adolescence. Recently, I have started to experience extreme anxiety and trauma from these "feelings" or "images" that I see and feel. I have to wonder if I have clairsentience and clairvoyance. My other theories include insanity, mental disorders, or inspirations from God. I simply lack the explanation for what is happening to me.
I see terrible things and things from both the past and the future. And while I see these images, I also physically "feel" them as well. This causes me much pain in my daily life and disrupts my ability to connect to my friends and family. The things I see are usually awful depictions of fields in ruins, deserted buildings, black skies, and usually no people. I believe these images to show what is to come in the future. Of course, it is extremely painful to accept the idea that the earth is going to die and humanity cease to exist and not be able to do anything about it. I also get feelings about myself, and others, in which I see things happening in the future. I also have gotten many feelings that I'm going to die soon and also feelings about the end of the world.
Any advice on how to control when I receive these images and how to stay sane and positive when I am experiencing and imagining such painful and traumatic things is welcomed.